AND NOW YOU

It`s hard, it`s difficult, i just can`t figured out. I`m confused, i`m paranoid, i don`t know...
All those things i thougth i knew some weeks ago, now i don`t believe the same.... i need something... but i`m scared.. i don`t want to loose... but neither i want to win... i think i enojoy suffering, choosing wrong... the more i think that someone is not interesting in me, the more i like this someone. Love difficult things... that makes me happier, makes me worried, makes me note that i had something missing.
I just don`t know (what to do with myself). But this state of not knowing makes me write, sing, dance, dress up, try to be better.... i`m not stanqued... i`m moving, i`m growing, i`m feeling, i`m needing, some kisses and hugs.... maybe just a hand.... some day at the weekend, not everyday, i don`t like that.... Just a lover once a week and not thinking too much about it.
Because at the moment you show me some little interest, thats the moment i start to forget you...
It`s like living in warm weather... you don`t need anything. But, living in cold weather.... you have to work and think how to live before a frosen dying. This is kind of what i`m talking about more or less.
My feelings... my thougts, nobody knows about them... just me.
And now you.